

As Pregnancy & Infant Loss month comes to an end this week we honour their short, but precious lives with a beautiful poem written by Jennifer Giles.
Do you know the story behind the white pumpkin?
Every year I share this it brings a hug to my heart, especially as this is my favourite time of year. I dream of our children playing in the leaves wearing their muddy wellies. I can hear their laughter and feel their joy as we prepare for Halloween.
This is the story
Of a pumpkin of white
What is its place on this autumn night?
Amidst all the orange and colors of fall
It seems out of place; not belonging at all
But oh what a place, and oh what a story
You see, in its face lies the image of glory
Of babies so small, so incredibly tiny
Perfect in purpose, their souls shining brightly
No less a baby, a child just the same
As one who was held and called by their name
Was my baby a he?
Or was she a she?
What would my child have grown up to be?
Yet bigger than questions and what ifs and whys
Is the comfort they feel when they look to the skies
For their hope is the truth that they so tightly cling
“I’ll know all the answers, understand everything
on the day that God hands my child back to me”
This pumpkin is sweet baby boys and girls
Who never opened their eyes to this world
Never cried, never feared
Protected from pain
Touched by their innocence
We’re never the same
Lives perfect and pure
All things lovely and sweet
And we honor them here
‘Till heaven we meet
This pumpkin is all of the sweet little ones
Whose lives although short were covered in love
In kisses and snuggles, rocking and playing
Their parents not knowing they wouldn’t be staying
But the time that they had they would never trade
Even if they could be saved from the pain
Their cribs may be empty, but the promise remains
One day they’ll hold their babies again
This pumpkin is for all these sweet angel friends
Whose parents all know this isn’t the end
And how they are doing
Tonight up in heaven
Is better than anything we could imagine
Though we’re missing our children
And we’re still on this side
Our hearts will continue to swell with pride
At the special, the wondrous, the out of place things
Like this white pumpkin, and the joy that it brings
A reminder that our children are more than alive
They are perfectly whole, all things are made right
Angel parents, I know there’s still tears to be shed
But I hope that this pumpkin brings peace instead
Our babies are promised forever in heaven
And that’s the best gift we could ever be given.
by Jennifer Giles
This poem has been shared for many years within the baby loss community, each year we see more and more parents sharing their journeys, and requesting special graphics to honour their children on Halloween. So, what does the white pumpkin represent?

This year our amazing volunteers have made over 100 white pumpkins to distribute to families and hospitals across the UK. If you would like one of the handmade with love special white pumpkins in memory of your little one, then please contact us via email. All we ask is you cover materials, postage, and packaging costs, which will be £3.50. (UK Only) via PayPal or Bank Transfer. Our Admin Charley & Gemma have also been working on special graphics for parents to share, if you would like one please feel free to comment below with your little ones names.
Sending all our love and hugs this Halloween, please remember you are not alone on this journey. There are many wonderful organisations that offer bereavement support, closed support groups, and our team are on hand to support you via our sister organisation Angel Parents UK. Open 7 days a week from 8am till 10pm, covered by our wonderful bereavement trained volunteers and baby loss parents.
Please take time to be kind to yourself this Halloween, it is how we heal on this journey, and together we can all make magical memories,
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